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Is This The Way The World Was Meant To be?

I’ve changed. My goodness I’ve changed. And although the change has been gradual, I am living a version of my internal life I have never lived before.

It all has to do with my heart, and maybe (probably, absolutely) hormones. You see, the thing is, empathy for humans has always come easily to me. But now, empathy is changing the way I see the entire universe.

Once, I would have seen a cut flower and been very pleased to have been given such a lovely thing. Now, I feel for the flower. It has been cut to make me happy, and yet it is dying in my hands. Is this the way the world was meant to be?

Once, I would have read a book, held the pages close to my face and inhaled. Oh, the smell. It would have brought me such pleasure. Now, I think of the trees and all the animals who’ve lost homes because of the glorious romantic story I’ve called books. Is this the way the world was meant to be?

Once, I would have seen a spider on the wall and swatted it, killing it instantly. Now, I deliver it outside and onto a bush (if I can). I think of my children and wonder how I would feel If someone swatted one of them just because they were in the wrong place at the wrong time. Killing for convenience? Is this the way the world was meant to be?

And lastly, I would have gotten a pet and loved it as my own child. Those innocent, melty puppy eyes, how they would capture my heart and soul. Now, I connect to the primal core of its mother, and I hate myself. Taking her baby (or the baby of any living being, without permission) to meet my own needs. Is this the way the world was meant to be?

I am not at all saying that anyone who has a pet, kills spiders or reads books is doing ‘wrong’. I am one of you. I do these things, too. All I’m saying is: I see this world anew.

And because of this, I fear I see too much to go back.

Where am I going, then?

Where am I going if I love, too much?

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By brookecutler2

Liver of life, lover of everything. 💕

2 replies on “Is This The Way The World Was Meant To be?”

Straight into a kinder, more thoughtful and loving heart! I drive my husband nuts when I free flies instead of squash them because I don’t like spiders, but I still know they need food, though it’s quite bad news for flies either way. But the world was built to operate a certain way and we humans have wrecked it too far. We could use more beautiful, compassionate hearts like yours!

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Aww.🥰I’m not surprised you save flies, too, my darling friend, Kat. Poo poo to the nay sayers. 😉A life is a life, little, big or bug! Ha ha ha. 🥰

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